28/50 The Second-Guessing Game
1. That ol’ devil called, ‘you’re not good enough’
Hmmm, heading out soon and will be amongst some movers and shakers in an industry I still feel very new to, even though I’ve been slogging my organs out for the last couple of years working within it. I just didn’t realise I was.
I’m nothing if not quick.
I’ve been anxious today. Worried about what I’ll wear, how I’ll look and whether anyone will talk to me. And I don’t like it. This place of feeling less than. It’s on nobody else but me so I am going to put on the most beautiful dress that was delivered to me at considerable effort, somehow place a sticky bra over my boobs and not fret about holding my stomach in all night.
It’ll be ok.
2. It’s not actually about me, anyway
Exactly!
How many times do we hear that? Nobody is paying you any attention because they’re all focussed on themselves. (Also, just to be clear I’m a plus-one. I REALLY don’t have to do anything except be supportive.)
I’m totally letting my stomach out.
3. The cheerleaders
I work hard at not allowing these feelings to override the positives. But you know, sometimes you have those days.
The best thing in the world is having a team, your people, who no matter what say all the right things and make you feel a million bucks.
That’s what I’m going to remember if I should happen to walk into any walls, fall up any steps or break any glasses. (Unfortunately, all too common an occurrence in my social life.)
So my darling teamsters, thank you for your text and shoe advice, beautiful girl and thank you for going out of your way to get a dress I quite possibly might not have liked, husband of mine. I’m taking your love with me as I mix and a’mingle.
Excited now! Although would love to know I’m not alone here. Those moments of doubt can be crippling, can’t they?
Also, please know I think you’re AWESOME!
Photo by Levi Saunders
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