Three Things

1. I’ve cried myself out Not sure what’s happened here but I used to cry easily; swirling theme music, elephants, coffee ads of fathers and sons and when babies were born. All perfectly normal. Now it seems the river has run dry. (Apart from A Star is Born when, good lord, I was literally moving…

1. Or am I watching too much Netflix? I have just finished the documentary Wild, Wild Country about the spiritual guru Bhagwan Shree Rajneesh and his feisty right-hand woman Ma Anand Sheela. I already had a true-blue fear of being entrapped by the Moonies when I was a child. My friend picked up on this…

1. I am older than I was yesterday Not to state the obvious but now that I’m *cough* FIFTY I’m like a sponge wanting to learn more and at the same time shrug off the so-called worries and anxieties that took up an unwelcome chunk of my life. The fact that I’ll be SIXTY (sorry,…

1. There was decluttering We moved house (in case you missed all of my fascinating insta stories) and when I say house, I mean we moved from a house to a small, so so small, flat (‘apartment’ if you want to get fancy). Love the flat, love the area we’ve moved back to, love everything…

1. Thanks for making me 50 Seriously, I mean that. Next year apparently I’m going to be 51 and I’m into it, withered old limbs and all. Young or old you’ll be living this with me. Every. Step. Of. The. Way. Sorry. 2. Thanks for reminding me that life goes on I’m not trying to…

1. Christmas trees Every year at a certain moment, I’ll notice the first Pohutukawa trees in bloom and my heart feels good. These New Zealand natives with their bright, red flowers are the essence of Christmas feels for me. Then a song or two hits the spot (not Mariah Carey*) and we’re all on. *No…

1. Pros You’re at home! Clothes are optional! You don’t have to partake in Casual Friday or buy coffee for anyone else. Sometimes you can put your head down on your laptop and hum. Or jump up and down for no reason whatsoever. You can lie down on your yoga mat and pretend you’re practicing.…

1. Decluttering I’m moving house just after Christmas. Hurrah. Instead of starting to sort things I’ve been interneting the fork out of fabrics to reupholster our sofa and find a new desk for me. And ALL I can find is a vast array of organic rescued twigs smoothed out for a cool twenty-one zillion buckeroos…