2/50 Spontaneity Sounds Better Than It Is
- Spontaneity
Something some of us should think about when having a Great Idea. Spontaneity is all well and good when it’s a moment that doesn’t have consequences. For example, it’s spontaneous to suddenly decide to see if you can have a baby. And something a little more permanent when it appears you can. Same with setting up a daily challenge that you aren’t allowed to whinge about. I seem to have done both. Take this and learn from it, grasshoppers, for I doubt wiser words will fall from my lips.
- Work
Despite my long and detailed ‘to do’ lists I miraculously hold space for the following thoughts in my head all week long:
- I am unemployable so this better be somewhat of a success
- I am self-employed so I can do what I want
- I should listen to my body and rest
- I should earn some f*****g money
- I am enjoying myself so I’m doing it wrong, right?
- I am simultaneously going to self-combust with boredom so I’m also doing it right, right?
- I have some amazing ideas to put into place (not now though. I’ve just started Ozark on Netflix.)
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- Where did the photographer go?
My vinyasa class this morning was a fundraiser with a photographer (for a short time only… where did he go? Did I do something to scare him off with my come-hither #elderlymodelavailableforsnacks poses?). He was there to capture those of us who are givers. I was give, give, giving when I had one of those ah-ha moments which I live for in yoga. Forgetting for a moment to hold my stomach in and rest my aged jowls so as not to look all tendons and double chins I got caught up in the flow of breath where I’m not even aware of what I’m doing except trusting the movements to follow on after each other and simply feeling my way through them. All that and snacks after. I am, as we speak, levitating still.
PS. In case you can’t tell, there is no ACTUAL plan in place and we’re only two down. It is what it is, which in my defence, I believe I was very clear about yesterday. So. No whining.
PPS. To all the lovely, sweet people who were concerned I’m concerned about turning 50, I’m really not (yet). Thank you for your encouragement and trust me, you’ll know if/once I start falling apart. It is a tiny bit possible so let’s all hope for the best.
Photo by Aziz Acharki
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