1/50 Let’s Do This!

I caught up on email for the first time in a long time today, and to celebrate, I stepped outside for some deep, cold breaths, calmed down for approximately two minutes and then felt immediately overwhelmed for what I had to do next. I made another list as that always makes me feel productive in a spreadsheet sort of way (even though I wouldn’t know a spreadsheet if it hit me in the face) and, as always, I wrote, ‘blog post’. Because that’s what I associate as the ‘me’ part of this website and it’s been a while since I published a little something, something. Plus I had this brilliant idea. Actually I had it about a month ago but, you know, The List and things and life and other things and also I tend to back right off if I think of something exciting and wait to see if it might, just somehow, eventuate on its own.

It did not.

Anyway, let’s start with the fact that soon I turn 50 years old. That’s in human years! I know! I’m not going to dance around the fact that this is either the most fabulous thing ever and I’m going to let those grey’s on top of my head go wild and Botox the hell out of my face or it might be the end of the world as I know it and I may as well tattoo ‘I am an invisible, highly undesirable being’ across my heavily lined forehead. Fun times either way!

My Brilliant Idea was that I incorporate getting back into the writing swing of things by setting myself a task of 50 blog posts before the big day. Which if I’d started doing back when I thought of it would have given me a bit of time to play around with. But what do you know? Checked last night and to get 50 posts in means I have to start now. Today. And then write every day. (It’s like I was born to be a strategic spreadsheet thingy.)

The plan was to keep it simple, so naturally I kept thinking to myself, don’t overthink this, DO NOT OVERTHINK THIS, which led to a lot of trying not to think about it which led to difficulties in getting started.

And here we are.

When you don’t write, you forget how. Or at least I do. Like anything, it’s a habit, a rhythm, a deliberate intention. As the new site got closer to being finished and ideas became polished and ready to launch, I’ve thought of what I’d share. Words have flickered in and out, like that one bathroom light which when it rains tends to spark. (Let it be noted we are not handy-type people. Until that fitting explodes into a million tiny pieces or electrocutes me in the shower, then we shall continue on as if NOTHING IS WRONG.)

But I transferred nada from head to hand; didn’t even scribble middle-of-the-night muddle into the notebook next to my bed, meaning I had nothing to connect the dots, not even a typo.

But, BUT, the best thing about this whole experiment might just be the realisation I get from time to time (which gives me great hope) that I am, in fact, a grown up. I can do whatever I like with this (which is very liberating and a tad scary… have you seen my social media?!) and despite my commitment issues I’m all signed up (the drama, the drama!) and ready to go!

Of course, I have this month’s newsletter to get out, the next Featured Yogi and a couple of YogaTalk posts to publish yet I am as cool as a cucumber because below are the only three rules I’m setting for this fiasco/possibly genius creative journey:

1. 1. Each post will have three things written down. I’ll number them and they could be about anything. They might turn into an essay or two, what I’m particularly grateful for that day or just what I’ve eaten. There will probably always be something about my yoga practice but there might not be! I AM NOT OVERTHINKING THIS ANY FURTHER.
   2. I will write every day (even though it might be rushed and not perfect and not paired with great images and oh, sweet baby cheezus, it just might be crap! Puts head in paper bag) until I complete 50 posts which will bring me to the day before I turn 50. I AM SLIGHTLY HYPERVENTILATING.
   3. I will keep the whining to a minimum. I will TRY and keep the whining to a minimum.

PS. I probably won’t share about it on social media every day so if you’d like to keep updated you can subscribe to receive your daily dose on the front page of the Blog sidebar.

PPS. You are so welcome to join me! I’d love to read your posts! Even if you’re only 25! I won’t hold it against you. Much.

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Image of me and beach taken by the incredible Jen Raoult of Clair Obscur Photography.

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